Room to Breathe

Dilbert.com - April 28, 2003

All I have to say is…Ode to KY

I learned something new today…what to do when gum gets in your hair. Ya, so Dino was being an idiot…as per usual…playing around “pretending” to put gum on me. New Wrigley’s Excel - Lemon Ice. I really wasn’t thinking straight when I grabbed the gum, after it fell off me, and put it in his hair. He wasn’t very impressed. I figured that i would have to cut it out, but I thought that there had to be some other way. A few sites recommended peanut butter, among other things :
1) WebMDHealth
2) About.com
3) TipKing.com (there were many sites willing to offer help)
Anyways, I didn’t have peanut butter, but it’s the oil properties that remove the gum. So….I thought that it wouldn’t hurt to try olive oil. OMG!!! It worked so well. It jsut disolved the gum…LITERALLY! Then after the gum is fully removed, wash your hair and voila!

So…here I am…I am pretty fucking drunk…I will prolly read this tomorrow sober…and not understand it at all…it is very difficult to write while in a drucken state….

I just got back from a Stag & Doe. My very first one. Jenn & Rob came…Dino said he wouldn’t. We need to deal with that….hmm…anyways…so ya…I am pretty fucking drunk…I think that I said that already

A lot of shit happened tonight…with work and shit…since the Stag was for Jeff that i work with…my boss told me that he loved me….blah blah blah…and said that it I were to just get rid of Dino…and start to date him…all the extra that I put into the business would be mine…blah blah blah…he couldn’t do it without us…me Mike and Jeff…blah blah blah…he thinks I am sexy…I have a great smile…blah blah blah…he would love for me to have his children…he thinks that i would be a great mom…blah blah blah…and so on.

WTF am I to do with that shit!!?!???!?? I should just quit. I am really not interested in him. Not like that anyways. We have been friends for so long. I just couldn’t do that! First off…he is not my type…secondly…I am not attracted to him…thirdly…there are too many things that i could not put up with if I were to start and “date” him. I will not get into them right now…since the list is quite long…and I am to drunk to even write my daily blog…which I missed yesterday…and since today is actually Sunday…I guess I missed the last 2 days! Oh well..life goes on…

I don’t feel too bad about this Stag & Doe. Mike said I looked “different” tonight. Prolly since he has never seen me outside of the office…or drunk!! I spent $20 on tickets. James bought ours…for the “staff” (Mike & I)…so mine was free…Jenn paid me back the $20. I threw $2 at some stupid bottle to win something….I spent $2 on Crown & Anchor…and walked away with $6…and then I spent $20 on Black Jack…and walked away with $18…spent $20 on Alcohol tickets..and walked away totally drunk…THERFORE…I spent $18 on a night out..and got totally hammered!! All in all a good night…don’t you think?? Except the fact that my good friend had a bad time…left without saying goodbye and had a fight with her fiance…my boss told me he loved me…and I just called and left a message on Dino’s voice mail telling him that I loved him! What night!

Today I proclaim to be summer …even though it’s still April and it’s only 14 degrees outside. The weather is beautiful…and it’s the first day Iam wearing sandals (and some new Capris that my fwb bought for me!)

To be or NOT to be SINGLE…
So I was thinking…about why I am single…and what would happen to my life if I was no longer “single”…and if NOT being single is really what I want. I don’t hate my life…in fact I think my life isn’t that bad at all! I am sorta NOT single…and that has it’s advantages…the great part is…I can do whatever I want! I think that is what the problem is. I DO whatever/whenever I want. People find that hard to deal with. Especially guys. I am not your typical girl. That’s for sure

So…if I were to suddenlly be officially NOT single…what would change? I often think nothing…and I would be right. But it was brought to my attention today…something about space and possessions. Right now…everything is mine…and I share what I want to share…and not what I don’t want to share. I don’t know how easy it would be to have to give everything up…and to start answering to someone again. I left home 7 years ago. It’s been tough…and sometimes lonely. So is the only reason that I don’t want to be officially NOT single only for selfish reasons?

BITCHOLOGY
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love, they call me a bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my way, they call me a bitch.
Being a bitch means I won’t compromise what’s in my heart. It means I live my life MY way. It means I won’t allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, I am defined as a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for myself instead of being everyone’s maid, or when I act a little selfish. It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who I truly am and won’t become anyone else’s idea of what they think I “should” be. I am outspoken, opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.You won’t succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.

Babe
In
Total
Control of
Herself

Beautiful
Intelligent
Talented
Charming
Hell of a Woman

Beautiful
Individual
That
Can
Handle anything

tHiS GiRl

Happy whatever day it is today. I’m having this wishy washy day today. For some reason or another motivation was just not happening today, Seryna went to school in the morning on a day trip to GAGE PARK and what did I do after i drop her off ??????Well yes as embarassing as it is I came home and slept, yes slept for like 2 hrs…… craziness. I start school on Monday and the motivation has not yet kicked in.When it will?? I do not know ! Anyways after that I went to my mom’s house and sat and did nothing all over again… How productive am I????????? My day was very boing…. like the rest of my days. However i came home to find myself sitting here and again not accomplishing anything worth writing about….(blah blah) and whoever reads this blog i hope u haven’t fallen asleep…WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha..so for now this is all and maybe i’ll try back later if something exciting happens before bedtime… (who am I kidding???????)
ttyl
tHiS GiRl

Happy Earth Day! Back to work after 4 days off. Sometimes I don’t even think that it’s worth it to take/get time off. You have double the work when you come back! So you spend the next week (shortened also) trying to catch up…and by the end…you need another mini-vacation!!

Volleyball tonight was great! Since game 7 (Leaf’s vs Philadelphia), no one was there! I was going to take it off…but I figured that I would be home in time to watch the triple over-time anyways. I guess I was wrong. Leaf’s lost 6-1 So I am kinda glad that I chose v-ball. I had a good work-out with 4-on-4.

Woohoo!!! The Leafs just scored in 2nd over-time…and now they are going to have to go to game 7!! This is crazy. I don’t think my heart can take this much stress

So I am thinking that this new *blog hobby of mine isn’t very good! lol The problem is…I sit here in front of my computer…doing nothing really productive! However, I did manage to get the comment thingy to work …and…I did happen to stumble upon a great site again: ReasonablyClever.com. I am not sure how I found it before. But it’s always good for a time killer. Another site that I stumbled upon was: Motherboardinc.com. I guess only a geek like me would find it cool .

So. Since this is a *blog site, I think that I would like to post a “*blog” stating that I am very angry @ a certain someone who I just got off the phone with. Not that I won’t get over it. I will. Which is what makes me a ‘doormat’ of sorts. I am not angry at the situation…I am angry at the premise. How it’s alright for some to treat others the way they do…but when you do the same…or not even as bad…STOP THE WORLD! I wish everyone was able to see both sides. *sigh*