Room to Breathe

It was only 2 days (friday after work until sunday night), but looking
back it was kinda fun.

My first night back in my own bed felt kinda strange not having her next
to me. And I enjoyed having someone hold my hand as we crossed the
street.

She’s so smart and funny. She’ll be toilet trained in no time I know
it.

What is it about Barney that draws kids to him. When he came in TV she
couldn’t calm down! She kept pointing and dancing screaming, “mom! Mom!
Look!” I was the seregate mother for the weekend. It made me feel
special.

CBC.ca - Athens 2004 - CBC Sports: Athens Games close with two-hour spectacle

So now what am I supposed to do until 2AM each night? Sleep? I am gonna miss my 12:35 volleyball games :’(. Only 4 more years.

There are the 2006 winter Olympics in Italy to look forward to though. Then the 2008 Summer Olympics in China. And then the Winter Olypics come to Canada in 2010!

I had the pleasure of baby-sitting my niece this weekend. I stayed at my mom’s place since there is no way I could have accommodated her here. She is 20 months old, and quite a character. 2 days @ my mom’s, and I’m ready to admit that parent-hood may not be for me! How do parents do it? I guess they just adjust as the child grows. I just don’t know what I would have done without my mom there for the moments that I wasn’t.

To all the single parents out there, you’re doing a great job!

…well…I am not pregnant! That was the only thing I could think of that would make be so discrete. But I’m not. My mom admitted that she was a little disappointed, and I am a little truthfully too. I would like a baby, but this isn’t the way that I would want one. I need to make some changes in my life first. 1) Make more money 2) Better my relationship 3) Get married.

The big “news” was that my iron stores are low. Extremely low. My damn doctor never checked that before, only my hemoglobin which is fine.

A normal range is 50-300. I am 17. My mom was an RN, and she is my personal nurse. I thought she was going to fall over when she heard that. It’s never been tested, how would I know?

I learned a new word today: Menorrhagia. Something that I have just learned to deal with all my life. Apparently I could be having more of a life, I just didn’t know it.

So what do I do, and how do I get more iron? Here’s 1 article that may help: PUMPING UP YOUR IRON.

Prescribed: 300mg Ferrous Gluconate twice daily & to be taken with it, 100mg Docusate Sodium (Colace) twice daily.

I realized something here while waiting in the “Ikea” waiting room
(never seen so many Ikea products in a doctors office before). The only
reason that they want me to come in and “discuss” my results with the
dotor is because she probably is on the pay system where she gets paid
per visit; not per patient.

Ya…that’s what it is….I’ll tell myself that so I don’t have a heart
atack while I sit here and wait for another hour.

I got home tonight to find a message left on my voicemail from the
walk-in clinic I went to the other night. They said they would call
with the results of my blood test; and they did.

So I am sitting on hold right now, and my heart has never beated so
fast. Is the rest of my life about to change?

Alright. I have never had this happen before. The receptionist said
that there is nothing “life threatening”, but the doctor would like to
see me.

Now I am shaking.

It’s the end of August, summer should be winding down….but it hasn’t even begun!

We haven’t had the hot humid days that are normal for this region and it seems more like an extended Spring than a summer. Before we know it, there will be snow on the ground with all the precipitation we’ve been getting.

I left my house this morning unprepared for rain. I listen to the forcast every morning, and heard absolutly no mention. 1 drop hit me and I thought nothing of it since the sun was brightly shinning. Then I saw a few drops land in front of me as I continued to walk. Before I knew it, the skies opened up, and I was drenched. Nearly 7 hours later I sit here with my jeans still damp and the fuzziest hair ever.

To top my day off, I forgot my lunch. Well, I remembered 1/2 of it, the tomotoes and the mayo, but I forgot the bread to make my sandwich.

So I am wet, my hair is horrible and I just dropped yogurt, my only lunch, down the front of my shirt.

“Calgon take me away!”

This is the third time since 1992, and I am not going to miss it again! The first time I was too young; the second I didn’t have anyone to go with.

My radio/alarm plays full blast for about 1½ hours before I actually get out of bed. But this morning I was 20 minutes early, and jumped, no FLEW, out of bed when The Edge announced that tickets go on sale this Friday morning @ 10AM.

http://www.morrisseymusic.com/

With the world’s fate
Resting on your shoulder
You’re gonna need
Someone on your side

Morrissey: You’re Gonna Need Someone On Your Side

I know why I enjoy “Sex and the City” so much. Many of the trials and tribulations that Carrie Bradshaw struggles with in her search for true love, and problems with Mr.Big, parallel very closely to my own life; and compare identically to my own relationship with my boyfriend.

The quote from tonight’s episode (Episode 19 - The Chicken Dance) was:

“And suddenly it hit me. Two people were committing their lives together, and I couldn’t even get a guy to put his name on the card.” (Carrie said as she was reading a poem at a friends wedding, while Mr.Big, who didn’t want to be there, took a phone call on his cell.)

Carrie’s Poem
His hello was the end of her endings
Her laugh was their first step down the aisle
His hand would be hers to hold forever
His forever was as simple as her smile
He said she was what was missing
She said instantly she knew
She was a question to be answered
And his answer was “I do”

Something that was so important to Carrie, getting an invitation that
didn’t say, “Carrie Bradshaw and guest”, didn’t matter to Big at all.

“I am afraid that we don’t want the same things.” (Carrie said when she confronted Big about not wanting to be there.)

Oh how many times have I thought that?

On the positive side, if you watch the final episode of the series
(season 6), you’ll learn that 1) Mr.Big’s real name is John, and 2) they
finally got together - for real.

So what is it that makes us realize that we are getting older? The fact
that all your friends around you are getting married, starting familes?
When the phrase, “what do you want to be ‘when you grow up’” is no
longer valid? Realization that what you and your friend did “last
weekend” was really 5 years ago?

I keep waiting for the “when I grow up” stage, only to realize that I
already have….I just haven’t truly changed. So when is my life
altering event going to happen? Has it already and this is it?

When do you say that I’ve “grown up”? I still feel like I’m
21-years-old. Lord knows I act like it. I keep taking things one day @
a time….but those days are turning into years very quickly. I don’t
want to wake up one morning and not recognize myself in the mirror. Age
is the only thing truly enevitable, and I’m scared.