I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.
I haven’t been posting consistently for about 2 months now. Just too much going on in my head, and I don’t care to put it all out there for the world to read; not just yet anyway.
So I thank you for the emails of concern. Yes, I’m still alive, and…once everything in my life washes out, I’ll get back into routines.
Until then…I’ll do my best, but I fear my desire has been lost.
You would think with my new computer (That’s right, I stepped into 2002 with a P4!), that I would use it more. The thing is, now I just want to play more games!
Thursday I learned that I am going to be Aunt x2! Middle brother is having a baby! He got married 5 weeks ago, and guess what? She’s 5 weeks pregnant! Only my brother, who has saved himself all these years, could have this happen to him. The first time he has sex he reproduces! Same goes for her too though. He wanted a family, and sure didn’t waste any time starting. Well, that how God made it. 2 virgins. How beautiful is that?
To this story I should add, she’s from Ecuador, and we have never met her. My brother has been spending thousands of dollars flying back and forth for 6 years now. She can’t get a VISA (Or whatever she needs) to come even visit Canada. My brother has tried for so long. They say because she hasn’t travelled enough, she is a flight risk. They don’t think the she has enough reason to return. Um…she’s in university…and her family (who are well off and aren’t poverty or anything), isn’t that enough? So back and forth he goes, and last time he married her! We knew it was coming. He went down in the fall and proposed (First flew to Galapagos to ask her parents. She lives on the main land with her Grandma for school.). Then he went down (for 2 days!) @ Christmas. He was granted 1 week vacation from work, and thought this would be his last time in a year, so he took the opportunity.
I guess in Ecuador, they view the “Civil Ceremony” as legal. The Church ceremony is separate. We just incorporate the 2. The thing is, she can’t get here, so this was the only way to make it happen. I don’t think he was planning on leaving behind a little seed, but that’s the way things worked! So the way his story goes is: House –> Married –> Baby –> Live.
He’s leaving in 2 weeks to bring her up here. He’ll stay there for as long as it takes.
One day later, I learn that youngest brother (I only have 2), is getting married! Now he already has a child, and was living with my sister-in-law to be. They just bought a house the end of January, and I guess are settled enough to start planning a wedding.
He called me this morning and asked if I could be in the wedding party. I acted surprised, because apparently dad wasn’t supposed to tell me he was getting married. Dad didn’t know it was a secret. Since I didn’t know it was a secret and that dad wasn’t supposed to say anything, I told mom. When my brother told me, he asked me not to say anything to mom because he wanted to tell her. SHIT! Too late. Mom already told my other brother too. Geez. Family of big-mouths; but we were all so happy!
My dad only told me because he was so excited that they would no longer be living in sin. As dad often says, he did do things “backwards”. Baby –> live –> house –> married. Well, those were the cards my brother was dealt, and he made the best of it. I think he’s done a great job, and has a beautiful daughter to show for it.
I got so excited on the phone with my dad when I heard the news (and he has just learned that he was to be Grandpa x2), that I told him that I too was getting married. Wouldn’t that be something! All his kids married in the same year. He said, “you are?!?!” “Sure!” I said. “October 14th”. My bf turned around when he heard me say this. I giggled. “Oh honey I didn’t tell you?”. Turns out October 14th is a Friday…and Friday’s are cheaper…and it is fall…and I do want a fall wedding…and if I don’t get married this year…then I won’t be married before I’m 30. I already missed the cut off for having a child before 30. That was 2 weeks ago that I should have been pregnant, and well…I totally am not.
So, 2 weddings for 2005 and counting! Middle brother will have a ceremony etc. here in Canada ASAP, and youngest brother end of August.
On Lost tonight, the question was raised by Jack, “What Blood Type do you have?”
Does anyone really know this? I mean, for the life of me I have no idea! I’ve asked my mom before, so I have known, but could never remember. A? B? O? Positive? Negative?
I’m glad that I’ve never been in a situation where I need to know, and I know they can test in the hospital to find out, but wouldn’t in be good to put on your driver’s license or something?
So….what blood type do you have?
Update: I spoke with my mom who filled me in on the details. Mom=A+, Dad=O+. She said the odds of 2 positives creating a negative is 25%. My brothers and I are all A-, which places us with 6% of the population.
Other things I learned: O+ & A+ are the most common blood types. Type O- is a universal donor. Type AB+ is a universal receiver.
Remind me not to drink coffee only a couple hours before bedtime. I was awake all night - literally. I lay in bed this morning and watched the sun rise. My eyes wide open.
I have cut coffee out of my life too. I only have it occasionally now, but last night was an exception. I had some work to do, and I was really drowsy. Therefore I thought a quick brew might help me get moving. Sure did! Perked right up and didn’t come down for 12 hours.
Next to cigarettes, I would say that caffeine is one of the highest, if not the highest, legal drug additions out there. I used to make it a rule not to drink coffee after 1PM. That’s how long it takes it to clear my system. Mind you, I’m not drinking the crap Tim Horton’s calls coffee. Not at all. I’ve been hooked on Starbucks for 6 years. I like my coffee bold and strong. This morning I’m brewing a nice blend called Arabian Mocha Java.
3 weeks, 5 days no smoking. It’s getting easier with each day. I am now a firm believer in the only way to quit is to stop completely. Weaning DOES NOT work. Make a decision to stop, and do it. One day you have to decide not to buy anymore. That’s what worked for me! Simply by not making cigarettes available. It’s like not keeping junk food in the house.